Originally posted Sept 6 on my Friendster blog.
Winter desperately clings on to Melbourne while Spring drizzles gently but insistently to wash it away. I can almost hear Spring whisper, "Let go... Move on..."
The change in the season seems to reflect my mood as I've been rather melancholy lately. I've also been thinking a lot about my past and those dear to me, those who have touched my life and made impressions that linger to this day. While I was thinking about them, I realised that most of them I haven't seen or spoken to in a considerable time, and that they, in all likelihood, have no idea of what their influence on me has been. I'll be the first to admit that I'm lousy, absolutely terrible and utterly hopeless at keeping in touch. It wouldn't be that bad if I were in the country but sadly, I'm another continent away. I do not know if they still call me friend, but these are some of the people that I will always be dear to me. To one and to all, I want to say thank you.
Melissa: For always being there, for never giving up on me, for your optimism, courage and never-say-die in the face of all your troubles. For being my friend when you could have so easily gone the other way.
Charis: For your kindness and gentle nature, and yet managing to be steadfast to your faith and principles while being tolerant of others.
Sherina: For never judging, never losing your cool, for being able to understand without words.
Teo: For the courage to be true to yourself, and for always getting my dirty jokes ;P.
Sarah Ann: For your indomitable spirit, your faith in your own abilities and your ability to recognise bullsh*t and say it as it is. For always getting up when life deals you a fall.
Terence Lee AY: For always having a smile on your face, always making others laugh, taking no offence and for never giving up on finding love.
Sophine: For the courage to go for what you want, even if it is the path less travelled by and not giving a damn.
Pei Fen: For managing to be funny when you are sad, for your dedication to duty and infinite caring.
Kah Keong: For forgiving and forgetting. I'm sorry...
Elaine Chew: For guiding me when I needed it most, for your wise counsel, sympathy, and most of all your unwavering loyalty. I miss your sago pudding!
Bev: For your love of life, your loyalty, your ability to make me smile even when I thought I couldn't. For not breaking down when the world seems out to get you and managing to carry on.
Amanda Lim PS (I know a few Amanda Lims, ok!): For your appetite (eating-wise and dancing-wise), your determination to not take anyone's bullsh*t, your loyalty and ability to get me out of my comfort zone.
Michelle Chong HY: For enduring under impossible conditions, for never betraying yourself, for living when others would have given up. You inspire me.
Rosey Moo: For being larger than life and having a heart (and voice) that's even bigger than that.
Amar: For the courage to admit that you didn't have a destination, for teaching me that it's ok to take your own time to find your own pace and your own place in life. Appu, try to go easy on the drinking and smoking, ok?
Jason & Su Ee: For showing me what friendship was like. No matter what happened, till today, I cannot think of one of you without remembering the other. I miss the two of you yakking away in Hokkien over my head...
Raymond Hiew MT: For showing me a few things about myself, for giving me a goal to aim for, whether you knew it or not.
CJ : For feeding pigeons with me everyday, all those years ago in primary school.
Joyce Teo HJ: For the sheer vitality of you, the optimism, bubbliness and cheer that infects all around you.
Lorraine: For smiling when you were dying inside. Forgive me for not being there to catch you when you fell. I miss you, Rain.
I do know I've been less than ideal as a friend (girlfriend). I know that I am capable of being moody, selfish, forgetful, lazy, tactless and goodness knows what else. And I apologise. Each and every one of you is special to me in your own way, now and most likely always. We may meet again, we may not. I at least, will count you as a friend. I feel so much for you guys, so much that I cannot say.
Blessed be...
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